I can't believe I've been home a week

hey ,

last night i slept in the tent in the backyard with susan and kelsey. We watched Confessions of a Shopaholic, which was funny but kind of cheesy at the same time, but i fell asleep before it ended:P Today I'm going to take Cheico out on a long walk to the park probably, then tonight my dad is going to take me and Susan downtown so we can go out for dinner and go shopping around the beaches. Susan wants to go to Mr. Greek, so i hope we go there cause i love it!

I'm tryring to plan a trip for next week, I want to go to Maine. I know, its so random! I've never been there before, and i think its kind of close.

I need to go visit Michal sometime soon, it was her birthday yesterday! I felt so bad i called her and she had to remind me that it was her birthday:P Oh well, she knows taht i have good intensions...

anyways, im going to make my lunch!

SECOND DAY HOME !

I MADE IT THROUGH CAMP! I'm so proud of myself that I got myself through it! I had so much fun at trenton, I had like the time of my life, I wish I could have stayed longer :)

I want to be very descriptive in everything that happened because I never want to forget anything. Okay so the first day was hell! All the cadets with medications had to register them at the nurses office and the line was like 2 hours!! Everyone else was long gone and there were 5 kids left, including myself, who were still standing in line to register our meds. Everyone else was settling into their barracks and meeting their flights, and changing from their blue uniforms into their PT gear. So me and these five other kids were left behind when everyone formed up and marched to dinner, so we had to march to dinner 45 minutes behind everyone else in our uniforms, it was so embaressing. The four kids that I was with were all pretty creepy looking so I thought to myself, great well i've made a great first impression now! I cant even really remember the first night in the barrack. I remember doing stand to at the ends of our beds and thinking to myself, how the hell are we going to do this every single night? Oh and I also remember Srgnt. coming by and saying hello and letting us know she was our flight staff. I barely slept that night, the girls were so loud, but i loved them all!

The first few days are all really a blur! I remember when we met our 2nd Lft. I was in awe because he was so hot! Like he was totally my type, and I know this sounds phyco but we like connected the second we met. It was just like I don't know how to describe it, he understood me and I don't know i feel like such a creep but like he didn't have to be all fake around me. Okay well whoever read that just disregard that! I just want to remeber it how it was.

There were sooooo many creepy guys! It was rediculous (shit i can't spell) how many creepy guys there were!

:)

I'm going to get some rasin bran , peace out

leaving tomorrow!

I CANT BELEIVE IM LEAVING TOMORROW! Where has the time gone? Im soooo nervous for tomorrow that i can't even begin to explain.

I've done some research and I think i have this thing called COPD, and im pretty sure its a lung disease. I cough regularly, have had cold like symptoms for over a year, no cold medication works for me and i get out of breath by doing small things. Im not even a smoker. Mom will have to make me a doctors appointment when i get back from camp, cause its an issue!

Im pretty much done packing, i just have to finish doing the random things. I know for a fact that today is going to go by so fast! I think im going to get my parents to take me out to mr. greek for dinner :) We haven't been there in so long and i love it there! I personally think that i deserve it for going to this camp!

Canada day was so boring. I went to a family friends house, and they have a daughter my age. She's so fucking weired! She didn't talk to me for the first 45 minutes, but then i started talking to her cause she's a fucking idiot, and then she left to go to a friends! Mom forced me to go to be with her, and she left. I guess she's such a loner that she has to jump at every opportunity she can to get another friend! So i took a nap in the sun and then played mario cart wii with the little kids :

i'm going to go take a shower so i can walk the dog, then finish packkiiiiiiing!

peaceeeeeeeeee !

things are coming to a change

i feel like things are going to change soon, for the worse. There's nothing that I can really do about it, so Im just trying to relax and do nothing at all.

I went to chapters today with my mom to meet up with some family friends, and one of their daughters is m y age. Me and Laura got a book and read at the abck of the store. Yeah, my summer's been extremely lame, but there's a mental reason why. I just wish such things wouldn't hold me back, but I can't really do anything about it.

At the moment im tanning, i know its so bad for your skin but i made sure so put on my sunscreen & sunglasses!

Hopefully my next entry i will have some good news, haha doubt itt though.

peace :)

Today i went to michal's and we basically just chilled by the pool and lounged around in her backyard. After esther and I went back to michelles to just hangout.

On fb i got this honesty box comment that said "no comment. or should i say. no nice comment." seriously .. seriously ... How can you be stupidd enough to write that , not even saying anything mean ? This made me so angry, because I shouldn't be angry when someone says something like that, i should be comfortable in my own skin. I guess I'm working on it.

So i think in the last post i lost 3 pounds, and today I didn't eat that badly :) At Michal's her mom made us poutines, and i didn't really want to eat it because it has like a billion calories & fat in it, but I didn't want to be rude so i just has a small amount for myself. Overall, I was proud of myself today, food wise.

I think that I might want to become a vet, specifically in dogs. I actually love dogs, and it never really occurred to me until today that that would be a suitable job for myself. So I think that I will narrow my job choices between being a dog vet or a journalist.

I made this really cute bracelet, its burgundy and cream colored and its in this cool design thing. Lol, this sounds really nerdy but i made one for mother!

Well, I am going to rip my jeans :)

peace ! ✌

Happy fathers day

Well its fathers day and we went out for breakfast and we went to my grandparents for dinner : )

One thing that made me happy was when we were out for breakfast there were these really sexy guys sitting near us, and well that just made everything better. Then my wii tells me I lost 3 pounds! Come on, I dont think the day could get any better .. lol

Nikita & I were texting basically the whole day , so this is a progression (i guess)? This makes me happy, so we don't have to be fighting this summer over something so meaningless.

Tomorrow I'm sleeping over at Michal's, well actually I don't think were sleeping over anymore, but spending the day there. She has a really nice pool & hot tub, so that will be nice.

I barely got anything done about cleaning my room : | I cleaned off the night tables and thats basically it. Oh and i vacummed around that area as well. Tomorrow I HAVE to clean more, jesusss.

I need to start working out, seriously! Cadet camp is going to be hell, everyones going to be so fit and then there will be me .. So I am determined to work out until I go! That defiantly won't last more than like two days, what whatever .. ahaa

Im soo tired and i hve to finish putting new sheets on my bed, which i must say are extremely soft and egyptian cotton :) And I have to wake up early tomorrow to go to school to see if i passed my math exam. FMLLLL

peace :)

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